The Way You Make Me Feel

The echo of your voice

To know we are alone

The surest eyes

To pull me towards you

A devious smile

To appreciate I made the right choice

2 Extra Hours - Surf Excel Matic #GetSmart contest

Read about this contest and the poem almost just came to me immediately, so couldn't resist doing it up and posting it :)

Written for Surf Excel Matic #GetSmart contest

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If we had 2 extra hours to a day,
There will always be someone to steal it away

Like if my Majestic Mother had 2 extra hours to her day
She'd keep reminding me of my mistakes, while all i say is "Okay".

If my Bald Boss had 2 extra hours to his day
He'd be thrilled to save some money while I lose my overtime pay

If my Troublesome Teacher had 2 extra hours to her day
She'd still be watering her plants, while i grade her students the extra A's.

If my Boastful Boyfriend had 2 extra hours to his day
He'd keep it a secret and rush to a nearby town just to get laid

If my Foolish Friend had 2 extra hours to her day
She’d spend it on the phone gossiping to me when i really don't care

If my Deadly Dog had 2 extra hours to his day
I'd be cleaning his messes more often for he'd be eating more clay

If my Nosy Neighbour had 2 extra hours to her day
She'd want printed bio's of Joe, Jack, Jones, John and even Jerrad who's gay

But what if you had 2 extra hours to a day...
That no one can interrupt in any way?

Oh yes... if the Intelligent I had 2 extra hours to my day
I’d dream and dream and dream my day away

Copyright (c), Deepa Seshadri 2011

Going Away

I may not have been the best
but neither were you
i may not have fullfilled your dreams
but neither did you make mine come true

for whatever it was,
we saw in each other
love for a lifetime,
faded through weather

even though i walked,
i sometimes feel the pain
while you put up an act
to take all the blame

we may never fully understand
how this came to be
life works in strange ways
is how i console me

i try to look for genuine times
and it surprises me that i can't find them quick
was it so long ago
that i can't even remember, why we clicked?

people change all the time
depending on situations
it was my fault that i didn't realise
when i was crossing my limitations

but what did you do
as i closed my heart
you never came knocking
until we grew apart

so stop blaming yourself
and don't blame me
if we are not together
this was how it was to be

i only wish,
i could look you in the eye
as much as it would hurt you
i'd be a friend by your side

cos we've been through a lot
and we should make that count
there were emotions and feelings
not just a book of accounts

maybe i am being selfish
maybe it would never work
or maybe i just like to complicate things
to proudly say my life is fucked

and then, on a day just like today
I could have called to say 
i hope you're good, 
and i'm sorry for going away


Copyright (c) Deepa Seshadri 2011

Why?

Why do i need you?

Is it because my mind goes haywire, and i can't function without you?

Why do i want you?

Is it because you keep me waiting, impatiently, for more?

Why can't i trust you?

Is it because you're too simple and good to be true?

Why should i leave you?

Is it because you don't show me that i'm worth trying for?

Why can't i let go?

Is it because you're like a drug i never knew?

Why do i love you?

Is it because after all the pain you've caused me, my heart can never feel sore?

Copyright (c) 2011, Deepa Seshadri

I Like It

I've been in and out of love
But when i'm in love, its always unconditional
Cos that's the way i like it

I've been in and out of towns
But when at home, i'm always the happiest
Cos it's just the way i like it

I've done this and that
But as much as i wander, i always come back to music
Cos that's how i like it

I've been up and down
But no matter what happens, i'll never have regrets in life
Cos that's why i like it

Copyright (c) 2010 Deepa Seshadri

My Turn

I smile

Cos i'm happy

The slightest touch

Makes me weary

Of you, Of us

Of everything

Around us

This feeling

Of pure bliss

Is something

I cannot express

Its scary

Yet amazing

Unless u feel it

You won't know

What you're missing

Desperation; passion

They go hand in hand

You'll never know

How much

You'll never understand

Not when you are

Your monotonous self

Not until you open up

And pretend to be careless

But then i'm sad

Cos I can't do much

I can't show it

Not more than i already do

And not to the world

Cos ur special

Everybody knows you

You have another life

That you're respected for

So i have to sit

Quietly in the shadow

Waiting for your call

And waiting for my turn

Copyright (c) 2010 Deepa Seshadri

New Year

Hmmm, a new day, a new week and soon a new year! Can't believe 2010 went by so quick. Its been SUCH an eventful year... totally awesome! But i'm sure 2011 has so much more in store for me... i'm looking forward to it.

The above was my thought process as i wrote down the below verses. So u can see, while i started talking about it being 'monday' and the start of the week, i ended up being excited about the new year! lol =)

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Hey long week ahead
Be good to me, will ya?
The fun weekend's over
And its time to get back to the grind now

The stress at work
The funny people i come across
Join me in the bandwagon
It's gonna be one hell of a ride

Got so much to look forward to
What news will i get this week?
Some good and some bad
As long as its exciting, i'll be happy

By midway, i'll be tired
I'll be complaining that its going too slow
But the next day, i'll be back in form
Cos i'll remember i've got the weekend to gloat

And so the cycle continues
One week after another
Some things new and others old
And then suddenly, we're approaching a new year

Hey long year ahead
Be good to me, will ya?
Crazy 2010's almost over
Looking forward to a crazy 2011, hallelujah

Copyright (c) 2010 Deepa Seshadri

You

Into the darkness
I whispered your name
And everything suddenly became magically alright

I always knew
Right from the start
We were more than just lovers, even on a bad night

But i can never tell
Not out loud
Or somebody might take you away from me

And I can't bear to know
Not for a minute
That you'll find your happiness, even without me

You've seen me happy
Never seen me cry
But you know all about my emotional side

You've been good
But mostly bad
And that's what i've enjoyed on this crazy ride

If one day
You should leave
I hope its after i've surrendered to you completely

Maybe then you'll realise
What i really meant
And thoughts of me will stay with you until the very end

Copyright (c) 2010 Deepa Seshadri

Wonder Boy

This one's related to one of my books that's kinda on hiatus right now. Hope i get back to it someday... cos i love the theme!! :) Anyway... might add this poem to it, if i ever get around to completing it!! :)

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I guess some would call him superman
Others might say he was god
I for one, didn't believe in fantasies
But even i couldn't ignore his strange charade

He could soar like an eagle
With wings that could not be seen
I watched from my window sill one night
And was left stunned and unable to breathe

Who could i tell this to?
Who would believe me?
Even worse, what would happen
If he found out that i'm the one that leaked?

Nobody looked at him twice
Nobody even cared that he exist
And yet this wonder boy
Went around on a helping spree

Strong as the hulk he was
And as sharp as a knife
He knew absolutely everything
That was happening behind his eyes

One day the world will know
Of his best kept secret
But until that day, i'll act dumb
This one's for you Mr. Jake Hardy!

Copyright (c) 2010 Deepa Seshadri

Asleep

Before the world end
Before the lies
Before the pretense
I never survived

Before the lonely
Nights and days
Before the words
I never meant to say

Before the disputes
Before the pain
Before the broken glass
Of my window-pane

Before i saw you
In her arms
Before we got caught
In a cold winters storm

Before i loved you
Before you cared
Before being apart
Was my worst nightmare

Before i knew you
Before we met
Before i tried to drown
On the beach at sunset

Before the failure
Before the dreams
Before i knew the world
Isn't what it seems

I dreamed of love
I dreamed of you
I dreamed of holding hands
While on the move

Now here I am
Fast asleep
All because you
Couldn't keep your hands off me

Copyright (c) 2010 Deepa Seshadri

Why

Wrote this a few days ago... when i was really really reeeealy pissed! hehe

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Why should I give up a battle I want to fight?
Why should I give in just cos you want to win?
Why should I let go if you're the one who wants to?
Why can't you just let me do what I wanna do?

Why should I listen when you can never hear?
Why should I be blamed for all of your fears?
Why are you trying to control my already crazy life?
Why don't you just go fuck yourself.

Copyright (c) 2010 Deepa Seshadri

No Fear

Wrote this one on my way to Kutch =)

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Lonely inside
Alone in the out
Thoughts suppressed
Elevated now

Staying afloat
Keeping my distance
Feeling numb
This soul a nuisance

Guilty conscience
Haunting nights
One single thought
And hundred other subside

Fly pretty butterfly
For you have nothing to fear
Flower to flower you can hop
Without spreading a tear

Copyright (c) 2010 Deepa Seshadri

A-Z

Just a poem :)

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Always and forever
Believe in yourself
Calm down, keep cool
Don’t worry about the rest

Everytime you’re hurting
Forget about it quick
Gotta keep moving on
Haste is the trick.

I know you understand this
Just admit it now
Knives don’t work no more
Love is the new kapow!

Many people come and go
Nobody stays forever
Of course you’ve realised that now
Pain along with the pleasure

Quiet and surreal
Radically slow
Sweet yet spicy
That’s how it goes

Unlike your worst fears
Victory shall be yours
Wake up to the magic
X ray vision is not the cure

You and I, we both know
Zzzz will never help you grow!

Copyright (c) 2010 Deepa Seshadri

Tell Me

Another poem!! Ouch! And it was only a few days ago i was telling somebody i'm a 'songwriter' and I don't write 'Poems'!! Sheesh. I should keep my mouth shut :P

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Tell me a truth
Tell me a lie
Tell me something
I can’t deny

Tell me of love
Tell me of life
Tell me of a friendship
I can’t summise


You tell me you know me
Better than i know myself
So tell me what you see
Inside this web of secrets


Tell me a joke
Tell me i’m broke
Tell me a story
I can’t provoke

Tell me i’m weak
Tell me you’re wrong
Tell me i’ve been hurting
Because of you all along



You tell me you know me
Better than i know myself
So tell me what you see
Inside this web of secrets

Copyright (c) 2010 Deepa Seshadri

Sooner

I would never know... what i never had. That one line is what this poem is all about! You will never know... what you never had! I'm using the example of a relationship in this... but this could really be anything (good or bad!) that's happened in your life!

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If we had met sooner
Would you have loved me?
Times are always gonna be ever-changing
Would you let it be?

If we had met sooner
Would things have been different?
Would you have accepted me for who i was
With all our difference?

If we had met sooner
Would we have lasted together?
I always seem to be one step ahead of you
Even under pressure

If we had met sooner
Would it have been worth while?
What’s the point of having a relationship
That's without a smile?

Thank god we never met sooner
Even through the good and bad
For i’d never have learnt what i have learnt today
I’d never know what I never had!

Copyright (c) 2010 Deepa Seshadri

You'll Always Be There

So... my song 'Walk Away' got me thinking about something right now. When we talk about relationships - we always use the 'band-aid' metaphor. You know... like if you want to break up - just rip it off like a band-aid, it'll pain at first, but you'll forget all about it easily. I mean the Band Aid metaphor is used around quite a bit.

But why don't people use their hair as a metaphor. Think about it. For a relationship - it somehow seems perfect. You know... your hair is like a relationship you've had. Sometimes you have a bad hair day, sometimes good. Sometimes you like to experiment. Now that got me really thinking... and of course... I wrote down what I was thinking... and it turned out something like this.

There are some double meanings - so watch out for them :P

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Sometimes i’ll let you outgrow me
I’ll let you run wild
But if it gets too messy
I’ll crop you down for a while

I can streak you with colour
Maybe a sexy black and blue
And as you shine in the sun
Everyone will envy you

Oh my love!
You’re as good as my hair
Long or short doesn’t matter
You’ll always be there

Oh my love!
You know i’ll always care
Straight or curvy it don’t matter
You’ll always be there

Sometimes you might get burnt
Or just a little grumpy
But I have learnt
A good scrub can solve anything

I wouldn’t mind styling you
If you have the time
Even put a hat on
Whenever you’re feeling shy

Oh my love!
You’re as good as my hair
Long or short doesn’t matter
You’ll always be there

Oh my love!
You know i’ll always care
Straight or curvy it don’t matter
You’ll always be there

Copyright (c) 2010 Deepa Seshadri

Forever Yours

One more for today! Found this half written in my cell this morning, and finished it :D

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I have told you my weaknesses
I have shown you my flaws
I stand here now like an empty book
Waiting to be bought.

You can fill me up with your wisdom
Combine it with some strength
Only you can save me now
And make me live again.

You can burn the darkened pages
And cherish the bright ones
Scribble around the edges
If you want to add some fun.

I leave it up to you now, Mr. Knight
To erase the past of before
I am a humble human,
But I promise you I am forever yours.

Copyright (c) 2010 Deepa Seshadri

I Will Have My Own Say

They say don't make the same mistake twice
Don't count your chickens before they hatch
Opposites attract
But who are they?
Who are they to tell??

A friend in need is a friend indeed
A house is not a home
A picture paints a thousand words
But who are they?
Who are they to tell??

I don't live by books and rules
I live life my own way
I am nobody’s fool
I will have my own say

Yeah yeah yeah

They say, it’s better to be safe than sorry
Better to have loved and lost, than never loved at all
Don’t try to walk before you crawl
But who are they?
Who are they to tell??

Every picture tells a story
Everything comes to him who waits
Fortune favours the brave
But who are they?
Who are they to tell??

I don't live by books and rules
I live life my own way
I am nobody’s fool
I will have my own say

Yeah yeah yeah

Yeah...

Copyright (c) 2010 Deepa Seshadri

We Are Living Beings

I know... the title sounds funny :P Couldn't think of anything better.

This is a song/poem that's half said. I think the 'real' things that wanted to come out, never eventually found its way out. Maybe i'll re-visit this again later and change things. But then again, maybe not.

But u get the picture right? I mean, all problems in this world - is because of us - human beings. Which is really stupid, cos we're definitely the most intelligent species on earth... and we've got the super-power to understand and communicate effectively. And yet...

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There are some things I could talk about for hours
Like love and life and the truth ‘bout who we are
But some might say, they don’t really care
About the reason for this existence of ours

But help me spread the word around today
For there’s nothing better than to learn the right way
We were born to make, and not to break
So don’t take this lightly what I say

We are living beings, with special powers
We can walk and talk and understand each other
So why do we, turn to one another?
When we’re supposed to be living in this world together

Sometimes we do crazy things for fun
It’s alright if we understand it in the long run
Teach right from wrong, weak and strong
And the value of things that can’t be undone

We are living beings, with special powers
We can walk and talk and understand each other
So why do we, turn to one another?
When we’re supposed to be living in this world together

We are living beings, with special powers
We can walk and talk and understand each other
So why do we, turn to one another?
When we’re supposed to be living in this world together

(c) Copyright 2010 Deepa Seshadri

A Second Chance

For those of you who know what i'm talking about in this poem - please don't judge me! No - i'm not being over confident... and i'm not putting all my hopes on this. But yes, there is a part of me that's wishful - and I do really feel as though my life has rewound.

So please don't judge. I assure you, i'm not a cocky, self-absorbed, bitch as I appear to be. :)

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I think my life just rewound
And I’ve been given an opportunity
To live the last few years of my life
The way it’s meant to be

Could it be the hand of god?
Or a twist of fate?
Since I don’t believe in either
I won’t contemplate

But I will make the right choices
And I will be strong
I won’t let go of my dreams
This time around

I’ll take my opportunity
Oh yes, I will
Make the most of it
For sure, I will

For how many people get this?
A second chance at life
And even if some people do
How many make it a better life?

I am most thankful to my stars
For what I have just been given
Look out world, here I come!
My new life is about to begin

(c)Copyright 2010 Deepa Seshadri