Dare

I’ve been searching for you high and low
I’ve been searching for someone who knows
I’ve been wandering all of these roads
All on my own, all on my own

I don’t know

This is me, talking some crazy
The shit that i do for you boy
No one gives, I do what please me
But i get all hung up on you boy

Leave Me Alone

I saw you at the market
Your whistle blowin’ like a trumpet
You had a new walk, and all that
Saw you buyin’ her a leather bag

She was 4 feet and 9
Smaller than my behind
But when you trade in foul play
You don’t really get to have a say

Don’t worry,
I will not stand up, for your empty words
I will not break down in front of her
I will not curse you a hundred tears
I will walk on by, with my head held high

9 straight hours

The moonlight on your face
Oh, I miss it every day
As I lie awake, dreamin’ ‘bout your smile

The aching in my heart
Reminds me of a start
That I eagerly wait for, once you’re here with me

And then on an impulse
I dump all of my clothes
And decide to wait no more

Locked Doors

Every morning, it’s a brand new day
And I’m excited for what lies ahead
Every hour on the tick tock clock
Let’s me know I’ve got a lot going on, going on

But there are nights, when I dream about you
And there are days when I hear your voice
Sometimes I see a picture of you
That’s when I realise

Gone

Looking through the eyes of a millionaire
Strange and Beautiful, I can see… I’m aware

Dust turns to gold
Black turns to blue
I see new colours
Do u see them too?

Dark turns to light
Old turns to new
I feel a presence
Do you feel it too?

Choose

My baby's calling me again
I don't know what i've got, to say to her
She's blunt and harsh and caused me pain
But i know that i have done the same to her

She was gone, for the longest time
Now when its my turn, she says "your mine"

So Long My Friend

Four o clock in the morning, I wake up to ringing of my phone
Sobbing on the other side, I feel the tears as if they were my own
“He’s gone” came her voice so soft
“I’m over” she said, “Now, I am lost”

Unspoken Words

Original intention was for this to be a duet, but i guess it could work out both ways.

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You say… you’ll always try
You swear… you won’t make me cry
Then you leave me shattered, drowning in your lies

You fight… to have your own ways
You’re right… no matter what I do or say
Think about me sometimes, if you want me to stay

Nobody To Stop

Slowly she packed her bags
With a smile on her face that nobody saw

Through the evening she was lost in thought
Summoning up courage to do what she wants

Good or bad she wouldn't decide
It really didn't matter what this was all about

Scar & Release

Underneath a lifeless sky
You hurt, I cry

Memories of a coloured past
Haunt you, I stand by

Whispers forgotten
Boundaries crossed
Life has no meaning
Without you, I’m lost

Going Away

I may not have been the best
but neither were you
i may not have fullfilled your dreams
but neither did you make mine come true

for whatever it was,
we saw in each other
love for a lifetime,
faded through weather

even though i walked,
i sometimes feel the pain
while you put up an act
to take all the blame

we may never fully understand
how this came to be
life works in strange ways
is how i console me

i try to look for genuine times
and it surprises me that i can't find them quick
was it so long ago
that i can't even remember, why we clicked?

people change all the time
depending on situations
it was my fault that i didn't realise
when i was crossing my limitations

but what did you do
as i closed my heart
you never came knocking
until we grew apart

so stop blaming yourself
and don't blame me
if we are not together
this was how it was to be

i only wish,
i could look you in the eye
as much as it would hurt you
i'd be a friend by your side

cos we've been through a lot
and we should make that count
there were emotions and feelings
not just a book of accounts

maybe i am being selfish
maybe it would never work
or maybe i just like to complicate things
to proudly say my life is fucked

and then, on a day just like today
I could have called to say 
i hope you're good, 
and i'm sorry for going away


Copyright (c) Deepa Seshadri 2011

Run

I waited up for you
But i guess you had another busy day
This is nothing new
But i wish you had something more to say

I miss you
I miss the way your fingers run through my hair
Even if its all you do
It makes me feel like i am loved and cared

So throw away your cell phone
Leave your work behind
It's time we spend some quality time

Lets run away, far far away
Away from the madness
Hand in hand, we'll walk new streets
Unaware of the strange stares
And when we're done, exploring
We'll still have each other
To find our way... back home some day... so lets run away
Lets run away

I know its tough
To give up the things you've always known
But i need you so much
Gotta learn to live the life we already own

So say goodbye to friends
Leave your world behind
It's time we spend some quality time

Lets run away, far far away
Away from the madness
Hand in hand, we'll walk new streets
Not afraid of the darkness
And when we're done, exploring
We'll still have each other
To find our way... back home some day... so lets run away
Lets run away

You said you couldn't keep up with the lies anymore
So lets live the truth, with a crowd who never knew

Lets run away, far far away
Away from the madness
Hand in hand, we'll walk new streets
Unaware of the strange stares
And when we're done, exploring
We'll still have each other
To find our way... back home some day... so lets run away
Lets run away

Copyright (c) 2010 Deepa Seshadri

Enough is Enough

I know i did you wrong
I know i hurt you
But i never meant any of it
That's the honest truth

Sometimes people change
And you'll never know why
Learn to accept it
That's the only way you'll survive

I gave you chances,
Wish you took them all
Then maybe we wouldn't be here
To see this mighty fall

Enough is enough is enough is enough...
It's too late now
Enough is enough is enough is enough...
I can't try no more
Enough is enough is enough is enough...
Maybe its best to let go
Enough is enough is enough is enough...
Nothing worse than broken hope
Enough is enough is enough is enough...
And a love that's not there anymore
Enough is enough is enough is enough...
Yeah...
Enough is enough is enough is enough...

We've had this talk before
And we said we'd try
But when its not working out
How long do we continue to lie

When the time comes
I'm sure we'll be ready
To face the world
And the unsuspecting jury

Enough is enough is enough is enough...
It's too late now
Enough is enough is enough is enough...
I can't try no more
Enough is enough is enough is enough...
Maybe its best to let go
Enough is enough is enough is enough...
Nothing worse than broken hope
Enough is enough is enough is enough...
And a love that's not there anymore
Enough is enough is enough is enough...
Yeah...
Enough is enough is enough is enough...

There's only one thing that i'll always regret
I told you I didn't love you, which part didn't you get?
Maybe i should have explained that i need you to woo me
You should have shown me love baby, tried to seduce me
If there was love somewhere inside, you could have re-kindled
But now we'll never know cos you were too dumb to solve the riddle

Enough is enough is enough is enough...
It's too late now
Enough is enough is enough is enough...
I can't try no more
Enough is enough is enough is enough...
Maybe its best to let go
Enough is enough is enough is enough...
Nothing worse than broken hope
Enough is enough is enough is enough...
And a love that's not there anymore
Enough is enough is enough is enough...
Yeah...
Enough is enough is enough is enough...

Copyright (c) 2010 Deepa Seshadri

Now That You're Gone

Something's wrong with me, but i don't know what
Its been a crazy week, i'm just trying to keep up
My phone's been busy, but still no call from you

Every now and then, i find myself lost
Can't help thinking, is this where i need to be now?
I keep checking, but still no call from you

I'm too proud
To be the one
Who calls you up
To talk for fun
I'm too weak
To tell the truth
That baby I think
I'm falling for you

Come back to me now, yeah
I never thought i'd miss you so much when you're gone, yeah
I never thought i'd miss our one word conversations, yeah
I guess i never thought about if you were gone, yeah
Now that you're gone

Feels like yesterday, when you were besides me
I still remember the way your hair smelled to me
What's the use now? When there's still no call from you

I'm too proud
To be the one
Who calls you up
To talk for fun
I'm too weak
To tell the truth
That baby I think
I've fallen for you

Come back to me now, yeah
I never thought i'd miss you so much when you're gone, yeah
I never thought i'd miss our one word conversations, yeah
I guess i never thought about if you were gone, yeah
Now that you're gone

Now that you're gone
Now that you're gone
Now that you're gone

I can't seem to think straight, i think i'm in love with you

Come back to me now, yeah (Now.... yeah)
I never thought i'd miss you so much when you're gone, yeah (Now that you're gone)
I never thought i'd miss our one word conversations, yeah (I miss you baby)
I guess i never thought about if you were gone, yeah
Now that you're gone, Yeah
Now that you're gone

Copyright (c) 2010 Deepa Seshadri

Grandma

I lost my grandma on 20102010. She was a very very very special lady in my life, and i have loved and will always love her!!! Writing this song is just a way for me to express my emotions --> cos i'm never really good at that otherwise!

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I held your hand in mine
As you took your last few breadths
You may never know it
But how can i forget?

I’ve never been good with emotions
And may not have expressed my love enough
But you knew how much i loved you
Through everything good and bad

I kiss your forehead on this extraordinary day
Cos you've said your goodbye and had your last say

Oh my angel I’ll miss you so
I still remember the days when i was four
How you taught me to be strong and to never let go
All the cookies that you baked
And the mistakes you explained i should never make
I must have troubled you as a little girl
But oh grandma, you were the bestest in this world

Forgive me for not thinking before
Couldn’t I have written this a little sooner?
But i’m sure you can still hear me
Cos you promised you’ll always be there

So as I stand before you and watch your eyes close
I won’t cry, cos I haven’t lost hope

But my angel I’ll miss you so
I still remember the days when i was four
How you taught me to be strong and to never let go
All the cookies that you baked
And the mistakes you explained i should never make
I must have troubled you as a little girl
Oh grandma, you were the bestest in this world

And when i think of you
I’ll always remember
That smiling face with no teeth
You were always the best to me

Oh my angel I’ll miss you so
I still remember the days when i was four
How you taught me to be strong and to never let go
All the cookies that you baked
And the mistakes you explained i should never make
I must have troubled you as a little girl
But oh grandma, you were the bestest in this world

Copyright (c) 2010 Deepa Seshadri

I Told You So

Just got inspired listening to a song and just had to write this one down! From home too... that's a first =)

So strange that my mornings poem is called 'Tell Me' and evenings song is called 'I Told You So' lol!!

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Its easy for you to let go
But i want you to know
I told you all this before
Before you walked in through my door

But back then you denied
Sayin' i was out of line
Now i hope that you've learnt
I can be right sometimes

You have never been
In love with me
It only took a while
For you to see
And now you're not the person
You used to be
So you walk away
Taking with you the air i breathe

As i stand and watch you leave
Something inside me wants to believe
Even if this how its meant to be
Some part of you will always bleed

You have never been
In love with me
It only took a while
For you to see
And now you're not the person
You used to be
So you walk away
Taking with you the air i breathe

I told you all along
This wouldn't work out
But you kept lying to yourself
Now that you've realised
You're shaking my life
And you know that that ain't fair

I hope that you've learnt
I can be right sometimes

You have never been
In love with me
It only took a while
For you to see
And now you're not the person
You used to be
So you walk away
Taking with you the air i breathe

I'm in pain
(I told you so)
This ain't fair
(But I told you so)
Why should I suffer?
(I told you so)
When you're the one playing the game
(I told you so)

Copyright (c) 2010 Deepa Seshadri

Vanish

Like a thunder storm
You stole my heart
Whirled it around
And shook it apart

When you were with me
It was going good
Now that you wanna leave
Looks like I misunderstood

I fail to see why
But you choose to play dumb
You lie and don't try
Now I’m the one that’s left numb

If you wanna leave
Please leave today
Can’t stand it any longer
I can’t be this way
Can’t love you
Can’t hate you
I’m always confused
So if you don’t wanna stay
Please vanish away

All those moments
That i’ve shared with you
Means more to me
Than it does to you

So since it’s easy
For you to let go
I’ll only cry inside
And I won’t let it show

I fail to see why
But you choose to play dumb
You lie and don't try
Now I’m the one that’s left numb

If you wanna leave
Please leave today
Can’t stand it any longer
I can’t be this way
Can’t love you
Can’t hate you
I’m always confused
So if you don’t wanna stay
Please vanish away

Copyright (c) 2010 Deepa Seshadri

Walk Away

Am I in a movie
Where everything seems so real
Blind folded
With my hands behind the wheel

Should I let go
Jump before I crash and burn
Or stay on to know
How this is really gonna end

Just give me a sign
Make me believe
I’m here cos this is meant to be

And as I stare at you, you fade to grey
I’m clinging on to yesterday
Dont wanna let go, not anymore
Cos i’ve done it before

And as I wait for you, to make your move
You’re turning me away
But I don’t wanna let go, not anymore
Cos we’ve been here before

Not once, not twice.
Enough of times to know...
We can’t walk away now
Been together too long

Is this a dream
As I allow you to take the lead
Devastated
With all the lust and greed

What do I do
Cos I’m addicted to you babe
I can’t run
Cos its not gonna take the pain away

Just give me a sign
Make me believe
I’m here cos this is meant to be

And as I stare at you, you fade to grey
I’m clinging on to yesterday
Dont wanna let go, not anymore
Cos i’ve done it before

And as I wait for you, to make your move
You’re turning me away
But I don’t wanna let go, not anymore
Cos we’ve been here before

Not once, not twice.
Enough of times to know...
We can’t walk away now
Been together too long

Copyright (c) 2010 Deepa Seshadri

I'm Gonna Miss You

I’m gonna miss the mornings when you kissed me awake
The smell of your skin lingers in my every breath

I’m gonna miss the moments, the twinkle in your eye
Can’t help but smile even as you’re saying goodbye

Oh, I’ll have a lot to take with me
Lasting memories of you and me
And i won’t regret what we’ve gone through
Cos what i am today is because of you

I’m gonna miss the endless conversations
All the silence and the cute reactions

I’m gonna miss everything about you babe
But I still can’t help but smile as you wave

Oh, I’ll have a lot to take with me
Lasting memories of you and me
And I won’t regret what we’ve gone through
Cos what I am today is because of you

I’m gonna miss you
I’m gonna miss you
I’m gonna miss you... love

Copyright (c) 2010 Deepa Seshadri