Going Away

I may not have been the best
but neither were you
i may not have fullfilled your dreams
but neither did you make mine come true

for whatever it was,
we saw in each other
love for a lifetime,
faded through weather

even though i walked,
i sometimes feel the pain
while you put up an act
to take all the blame

we may never fully understand
how this came to be
life works in strange ways
is how i console me

i try to look for genuine times
and it surprises me that i can't find them quick
was it so long ago
that i can't even remember, why we clicked?

people change all the time
depending on situations
it was my fault that i didn't realise
when i was crossing my limitations

but what did you do
as i closed my heart
you never came knocking
until we grew apart

so stop blaming yourself
and don't blame me
if we are not together
this was how it was to be

i only wish,
i could look you in the eye
as much as it would hurt you
i'd be a friend by your side

cos we've been through a lot
and we should make that count
there were emotions and feelings
not just a book of accounts

maybe i am being selfish
maybe it would never work
or maybe i just like to complicate things
to proudly say my life is fucked

and then, on a day just like today
I could have called to say 
i hope you're good, 
and i'm sorry for going away


Copyright (c) Deepa Seshadri 2011