Always

My last song of the year 2010... and i'm ecstatic that its this one, cos i love it and i'm excited about it and i have good plans for it! 2011, here i come! ;)

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Always, Always
Always, Always
Always, Always
Always, Always

Boy you know you fooled me

You had me believe in your every word
What you did broke me
But I still have hope, still have hope, yeah

My friends think i'm crazy
I'm lettin' ya' kill me with my own sword
Somebody help me
Cos i can't let go, can't let go

We loved, We shared
A moment of magic
And then you're not there

I searched, I cried
But i'll cherish forever
The night we had

Always, Always
Always, Always
Always, Always
Always, Always

Do you think about me?
Can you feel my fingers dip inside your soul
Cos i'm always dreamin'
Someday once again, someday once again, yeah

One day i'll be stronger
And i'll have somebody else to hold
Won't need you any longer
But i won't forget, won't forget

We loved, We shared

A moment of magic

And then you're not there

I searched, I cried

But i'll cherish forever

The night we had

Always, Always

Always, Always

Always, Always

Always, Always

I remember everything about the night

The words you said and the moves you made

For the first time I was tempted into a lie

But I will not deny, the night we had

Always, Always

Always, Always

Always, Always

Always

Boy you almost fooled me

Always

You had me believe in your every word

Always

Do you think about me?

Always

Can you feel my fingers dip inside your soul
Always
One day i'll be stronger
Always
And i'll have somebody else to hold
Always
But i will not forget
Always
The night we had
The night we had


Copyright (c) 2010 Deepa Seshadri

I Like It

I've been in and out of love
But when i'm in love, its always unconditional
Cos that's the way i like it

I've been in and out of towns
But when at home, i'm always the happiest
Cos it's just the way i like it

I've done this and that
But as much as i wander, i always come back to music
Cos that's how i like it

I've been up and down
But no matter what happens, i'll never have regrets in life
Cos that's why i like it

Copyright (c) 2010 Deepa Seshadri

My Turn

I smile

Cos i'm happy

The slightest touch

Makes me weary

Of you, Of us

Of everything

Around us

This feeling

Of pure bliss

Is something

I cannot express

Its scary

Yet amazing

Unless u feel it

You won't know

What you're missing

Desperation; passion

They go hand in hand

You'll never know

How much

You'll never understand

Not when you are

Your monotonous self

Not until you open up

And pretend to be careless

But then i'm sad

Cos I can't do much

I can't show it

Not more than i already do

And not to the world

Cos ur special

Everybody knows you

You have another life

That you're respected for

So i have to sit

Quietly in the shadow

Waiting for your call

And waiting for my turn

Copyright (c) 2010 Deepa Seshadri

Is There Anyone?

Mr. Darkness vs Mr. Lonely. Hmmmm!

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I dig deeper into my soul

Searching for answers that i shouldn't know

Its never ending, this life long quest
Squeezing me out of my very best

If only i had a helping hand
Maybe things wouldn't really seem as bad

And i'm all wrapped up in my own tears
Shouting out loud but nobody hears
Is there anyone?
Is there anyone?
Somebody help me through my fears
Don't wanna be alone still standing here
Is there anyone?
Is there anyone?

A new day, a new beginning

Only brings up what the mind is forgetting

Charging up, for another war

Is there anyone to stand by me as I take a fall?

And i'm all wrapped up in my own tears
Shouting out loud but nobody hears
Is there anyone?
Is there anyone?
Somebody help me through my fears
Don't wanna be alone still standing here
Is there anyone?
Is there anyone?

Hey, Mr. Darkness

You ain't so bad, now that i've met Mr. Lonely

He's mean. He's cruel

He's a lot harder to even get rid of

He sucks. And pulls you down.

It's a constant fight to keep yourself standing tall.

I'm all wrapped up in my own tears
Shouting out loud but nobody hears
Is there anyone?
Is there anyone?
Somebody help me through my fears
Don't wanna be alone still standing here
Is there anyone?
Is there anyone?

Copyright (c) 2010 Deepa Seshadri

I've Got You

Rocking myself to and fro today
Thinking about us and of our special days

I've never wanted anybody, as much as i want you
Even though you make me happy and make me blue

And i'll cry
If you should ever go
Baby i'll die
If you leave me alone
I'm still alive
Cos i've got your arm to hold
I've got you

Yesterday's gone and tomorrow may never be
We've only got now, to spend wisely

I don't ever want anybody to take your place
Don't want to wake up one morning, without your pretty face; by my side

And i'll cry
If you should ever go
Baby i'll die
If you leave me alone
I'm still alive
Cos i've got your arm to hold
I've got you
Baby i've got you.

I'm stronger, each day with you
I don't need no other
But i worry, is that how you feel too
I know everything will be alright
Cos i've got you

And i'll cry
If you should ever go
Baby i'll die
If you leave me alone
I'm still alive
Only cos i've got your arm to hold
I've got you
Baby i've got you.

Yeah, i've got you.
And i'll cry if you should ever go
I've got you
I'll do if you leave me alone
I've got you
I'm stil alive cos i've got you to hold
Oh, i've got you

I've got you.

Copyright (c) 2010 Deepa Seshadri

Run

I waited up for you
But i guess you had another busy day
This is nothing new
But i wish you had something more to say

I miss you
I miss the way your fingers run through my hair
Even if its all you do
It makes me feel like i am loved and cared

So throw away your cell phone
Leave your work behind
It's time we spend some quality time

Lets run away, far far away
Away from the madness
Hand in hand, we'll walk new streets
Unaware of the strange stares
And when we're done, exploring
We'll still have each other
To find our way... back home some day... so lets run away
Lets run away

I know its tough
To give up the things you've always known
But i need you so much
Gotta learn to live the life we already own

So say goodbye to friends
Leave your world behind
It's time we spend some quality time

Lets run away, far far away
Away from the madness
Hand in hand, we'll walk new streets
Not afraid of the darkness
And when we're done, exploring
We'll still have each other
To find our way... back home some day... so lets run away
Lets run away

You said you couldn't keep up with the lies anymore
So lets live the truth, with a crowd who never knew

Lets run away, far far away
Away from the madness
Hand in hand, we'll walk new streets
Unaware of the strange stares
And when we're done, exploring
We'll still have each other
To find our way... back home some day... so lets run away
Lets run away

Copyright (c) 2010 Deepa Seshadri

New Year

Hmmm, a new day, a new week and soon a new year! Can't believe 2010 went by so quick. Its been SUCH an eventful year... totally awesome! But i'm sure 2011 has so much more in store for me... i'm looking forward to it.

The above was my thought process as i wrote down the below verses. So u can see, while i started talking about it being 'monday' and the start of the week, i ended up being excited about the new year! lol =)

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Hey long week ahead
Be good to me, will ya?
The fun weekend's over
And its time to get back to the grind now

The stress at work
The funny people i come across
Join me in the bandwagon
It's gonna be one hell of a ride

Got so much to look forward to
What news will i get this week?
Some good and some bad
As long as its exciting, i'll be happy

By midway, i'll be tired
I'll be complaining that its going too slow
But the next day, i'll be back in form
Cos i'll remember i've got the weekend to gloat

And so the cycle continues
One week after another
Some things new and others old
And then suddenly, we're approaching a new year

Hey long year ahead
Be good to me, will ya?
Crazy 2010's almost over
Looking forward to a crazy 2011, hallelujah

Copyright (c) 2010 Deepa Seshadri

Mood Swings

Mood swings. Mood swings. Mood swings.

Its amazing how one word can
Change your entire day's plan

You were looking forward to
Doing things, now you don't wanna do

Maybe i shouldn't have said things
Maybe then you'd never have replied
If only i could have foreseen
Gonna start this morning without a smile

You are all that i want
You're all that i need
I'm getting tired waiting
When will you understand
This heart of mine
Now all you give me are mood swings

Mood swings. Mood swings. Mood swings.

I thought I knew you before
But I guess I'm wrong once more

I wish you'd just come clean
Clarify what's going on between you and me

Maybe i shouldn't have said things
Maybe then you'd never have replied
If only i could have foreseen
Gonna start this morning without a smile

You are all that i want
You're all that i need
I'm getting tired waiting
When will you understand
This heart of mine
Now all you give me are mood swings

Mood swings. Mood swings. Mood swings.

Maybe i shouldn't have said things
Maybe then you'd never have replied
If only i could have foreseen
Gonna start this morning without a smile

You are all that i want
You're all that i need
I'm getting tired waiting
When will you understand
This heart of mine
Now all you give me are mood swings

You are all that i want
You're all that i need
I'm getting tired waiting
When will you understand
This heart of mine
Now all you give me are mood swings

Mood swings. :(

Copyright (c) 2010 Deepa Seshadri

You

Into the darkness
I whispered your name
And everything suddenly became magically alright

I always knew
Right from the start
We were more than just lovers, even on a bad night

But i can never tell
Not out loud
Or somebody might take you away from me

And I can't bear to know
Not for a minute
That you'll find your happiness, even without me

You've seen me happy
Never seen me cry
But you know all about my emotional side

You've been good
But mostly bad
And that's what i've enjoyed on this crazy ride

If one day
You should leave
I hope its after i've surrendered to you completely

Maybe then you'll realise
What i really meant
And thoughts of me will stay with you until the very end

Copyright (c) 2010 Deepa Seshadri

Together Forever

I guess you could consider this as one from the 'Conversations With You' series! :D So I did manage to make it into a 'series' ... 2 makes a series doesn't it? Well 2 so far... hope there's more!

Normal font = Girl

Italics = Boy

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Hey, I wanna talk
Not now baby, i'm busy

If you would just listen

Don't you understand i'm workin?

I just wanted to say

Look, I'm sorry

I love you, I love you, Hello???? Aarrggghh!! I hate you!

Hi doll face, I miss you

Oh, you should be ashamed!

Why, what did i do wrong?

You're causing me so much pain

If you're gonna be emotional...

Do you think this is a game?

Maybe i'll talk to you later

You're never there when I need you, hello?!?! Aarrggghh!! You're driving me insane!

You know my girl, she always talks a lot

But I've learned to ignore it and look past her faults

You know my boy, he's never there

Whenever I need him, he's always busy somewhere

But I love her

But I love him

And I need her

Oh yes I need him

And no other

And no other

Could ever take her place

Take his place

We were meant to be, together forever (together forever)

Love, just wanted to remind you

I know I know, i said i'll do it, please!

You said that yesterday and the day before

And i will, so don't hound me

But i can't keep waiting n waiting

Have some faith in me, already!

Well i came this far, didn't I? Hello?!?! Aarrggghhh!! How i wish i hadn't!

There, its done, you happy?

Hmmm, yeah sure, why not

You're upset with me now, aren't you?

Whatever you say honey, you're the boss!

You know that I ... hello?!??

*redial*

Why'd you cut the phone?!

Wanted to know what it felt like, for once!

You know my girl, she nags a lot

But I've learned to ignore it and look past her faults

You know my boy, he never cares

Whenever I need him, he's always busy somewhere

But I love her

But I love him

And I need her

Oh yes I need him

And no other

And no other

Could ever take her place

Take his place

We were meant to be, together forever (together forever)

Copyright (c) 2010 Deepa Seshadri